I have felt so down on myself for not being able to "stick" to any diet, eventually ending up bingeing and purging. I wondered why I didn't have the willpower to do it. I've been so jealous of the skinny girls who've been able to do it. Why couldn't I? What is wrong with me? Why am I so weak?
Well, I finally decided it was time to get some help.
I went to see my doctor yesterday. It was so scary. He weighed me. Took my measurements. Checked my blood work and vital signs. Told me I am insulin resistant. That's why I crave sweets and other carbs. He said I had wrecked my metabolism and if I kept down this path, I would end up gaining more weight and worse - diabetic.
He spent over 1 1/2 hours with me. I felt like someone cared and really wanted to see me do well and get better. He put me on a diet. And pills to help with cravings and burn fat. I have to report to him every week and keep a log of what I eat and how I feel when I eat. He told me to call him whenever I feel weak. I think God put him in my path to set me straight.
I will now keep a journal of my goings to the MD.
Today is Day 1. Wish me luck on a path to recovery!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Cheers to new friends!
So, I have a new friend who I'll be dieting with! I'm so excited, cause maybe THIS will keep me on track!
We even have close to the same starting stats, so that's a bonus. She's been doing ABC for a week now and has lost almost 7 lbs!
If I'm following her blog correctly - today is a 400 cal day. You can follow her too:
http://barbiebody.blogspot.com/
I hope I can be as successful as this! Wish me luck!!
We even have close to the same starting stats, so that's a bonus. She's been doing ABC for a week now and has lost almost 7 lbs!
If I'm following her blog correctly - today is a 400 cal day. You can follow her too:
http://barbiebody.blogspot.com/
I hope I can be as successful as this! Wish me luck!!
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
OK....What to do....
I have GOT to break this food addiction somehow. I've got two theories: 1. If I can just not eat for, I dunno, even just 1 or 2 days....maybe that would help? Or would it make me binge? and 2. What if I just eliminate all the high sugar/fat foods and stick with only healthy, low cal, low carb foods. If I can make myself stick to it for a week - do you think all the cravings would go away?
I've been reading about all the benefits of fasting in combination with a low carb diet and it's pretty interesting...
http://www.justinowings.com/b/index.php/me/a-low-carbohydrate-diet-mixed-with-inter
I think I might could do that...Anyone tried it before with any luck? There's just gotta be a way to break this dumb cycle I'm stuck in!
I've been reading about all the benefits of fasting in combination with a low carb diet and it's pretty interesting...
http://www.justinowings.com/b/index.php/me/a-low-carbohydrate-diet-mixed-with-inter
I think I might could do that...Anyone tried it before with any luck? There's just gotta be a way to break this dumb cycle I'm stuck in!
Monday, January 17, 2011
What am I going to do with myself?
I haven't posted in a little bit...mostly cause I think I just gave up. I can stick to a plan for no more than a couple days. I'm addicted to food. I can't seem to change that. Sorry it's so depressing...I know that's not fun to read. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself! If anyone out there has any hope for me - please fill me in.
I have been going to the gym just about every day. THAT I'm good at...I really like working out. Working out makes me hungry for some reason. So I eat. Cause I like food.
I could be eating something crappy...know that I shouldn't be eating it....tell myself to stop...and I just keep on eating. Then sometimes I purge. Sometimes I just say f*ck it. Am I destined to be a fat-a$$?
Any help?
I have been going to the gym just about every day. THAT I'm good at...I really like working out. Working out makes me hungry for some reason. So I eat. Cause I like food.
I could be eating something crappy...know that I shouldn't be eating it....tell myself to stop...and I just keep on eating. Then sometimes I purge. Sometimes I just say f*ck it. Am I destined to be a fat-a$$?
Any help?
Sunday, January 9, 2011
171.6
That's the weight I'm at this am. That's 4ish pounds. Not too bad.
Going to the gym today to run my buns off. Still going with the low carb thing - although I've been reading that carb/calorie cycling is supposed to be really good for fat loss. From what I can tell, you do 3 days (more or less depending on you) of no carbs (or less than 20g) and low calories, followed by 1 day of higher carbs (somewhere around 80-100g) and higher calories (increased 500cals from the low days).
So....if I'm doing 800cals and 20g carbs on low days, then after 3 days or so (which is usually when I binge anyway), I could increase my cals to 1300 and carbs to 80g. Interesting theory.
I read on someone else's blog that they follow low carb/cals until the scale doesn't move for 3 days in a row. That worked out to 6 days of low carb/cal. She then followed that with 6 days of high carb/cal. I think 6 days of a "refeed" is too much for me, but it seemed to work for her.
Now that I'm feeling better I may have to give this a try...who knows? Nothing else has kept me from the bingeing cycle yet. Maybe this would help that since I would know in advance that a higher day was on the horizon? I'll keep it posted.
Thanks to you guys who have wished me luck, given me a boost up, and sent "feel better" wishes!!
Going to the gym today to run my buns off. Still going with the low carb thing - although I've been reading that carb/calorie cycling is supposed to be really good for fat loss. From what I can tell, you do 3 days (more or less depending on you) of no carbs (or less than 20g) and low calories, followed by 1 day of higher carbs (somewhere around 80-100g) and higher calories (increased 500cals from the low days).
So....if I'm doing 800cals and 20g carbs on low days, then after 3 days or so (which is usually when I binge anyway), I could increase my cals to 1300 and carbs to 80g. Interesting theory.
I read on someone else's blog that they follow low carb/cals until the scale doesn't move for 3 days in a row. That worked out to 6 days of low carb/cal. She then followed that with 6 days of high carb/cal. I think 6 days of a "refeed" is too much for me, but it seemed to work for her.
Now that I'm feeling better I may have to give this a try...who knows? Nothing else has kept me from the bingeing cycle yet. Maybe this would help that since I would know in advance that a higher day was on the horizon? I'll keep it posted.
Thanks to you guys who have wished me luck, given me a boost up, and sent "feel better" wishes!!
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