Can I please still have boobs like this when I get skinny?!?

One day at a time

I did it again! 720 cals for the day yesterday and I didn't go over 8 carbs for the day (the carbs were from cabbage again...LOVE that stuff - can't seem to stay away!)

Forgot to weigh myself this am until after I had drank a whole bottle of water....NOT gonna weigh after that!! I know it may be weird, but I HAVE to weigh in the am...no clothing...after potty...before any intake. I feel like that's a more accurate weight that way. Oh well, I will weigh in the am and see how she looks.

Weight loss table eating 1000 cals/day

Day	Weight	Calories Used	Your Calorie Deficit
01/06/2011	173.24	2599.43	1599.43
01/13/2011	170.06	2577.05	1577.05
01/20/2011	166.92	2554.98	1554.98
01/27/2011	163.83	2533.23	1533.23
02/03/2011	160.78	2511.77	1511.77
02/10/2011	157.78	2490.62	1490.62
02/17/2011	154.82	2469.76	1469.76
02/24/2011	151.89	2449.2	1449.2
03/03/2011	149.01	2428.92	1428.92
03/10/2011	146.17	2408.93	1408.93
03/17/2011	143.37	2389.21	1389.21
03/24/2011	140.61	2369.77	1369.77
03/31/2011	137.89	2350.61	1350.61
04/07/2011	135.2	2331.71	1331.71
04/14/2011	132.55	2313.08	1313.08
04/21/2011	129.94	2294.7	1294.7
04/28/2011	127.37	2276.59	1276.59
05/05/2011	124.83	2258.73	1258.73
05/12/2011	122.33	2241.11	1241.11

Hope?

I did it yesterday - I followed my diet and I stayed under 600 cals for the day!

Wish me luck that I can keep this up!

Inspiration for the day:

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If I can get through the rest of the day...

352 cals...that's all I've had today. And I don't feel bad at all!

This, of course, being 4:30pm is the time of day when my willpower goes to sh*t. So I have to keep myself busy til I go to bed. I really feel if I can do it today...I can do it again tomorrow.

I don't know why I do this to myself. I wish I had more self-control. I was doing SO well with the protein-only diet. My family decided Japanese would be good for dinner, so we went to my favorite restaurant. Instead of ordering just shrimp or chicken, I got shrimp and a filet (my fav....YUM!) with all the rice and veggies that come with it. I poured all the yummy white sauce all over everything and practically licked the plate when I was done.

I wanted to purge SO badly. I didn't. (wtf - I have the willpower NOT to purge, but I can't NOT eat food that I know I shouldn't have?!?).

I haven't gotten on the scale yet. I'm scared. I probably should....Ok - 178.6. Holy cow. 2 pounds from 1 dinner?!?!? How the heck does that happen anyway? Salt? Carbs? Geesh.

Ok, ok...this is not the end of the world. Just gotta start over. I'm having protein drinks for most of my meals today, I think. No food = no temptation, right? We'll see...

Holiday hangover...

Whew! Christmas is done - had such a great time with my family and friends. The downside - I ate WAY too much (just as I suspected) and didn't purge enough. Exercise went down + purging went down = massive weight gain. I weighed myself yesterday...are you ready...178. UGH. I suck.

So after that lovely scale reading, I decided that since the holidays are now over (at least for me), I'll be trying the Dukan diet (modified, of course). The idea is that you eat only protein for the first 5-7 days, then slowly start adding in specific vegetables. You're allowed to eat as much protein as you want, btw.

Yesterday was day 1 for me. I had tilapia for breakfast and lunch, chicken and cabbage for dinner. (I know I wasn't supposed to have the cabbage yet, but it was there, and I wanted it.) I topped out at 1000 cals for the day and what's cool is that I didn't count the cals till the end of the day! So I felt full and satisfied.

The scale this morning liked me much better: 176.4

Hopefully, I'll be able to stay on track. I've already burned 325 cals on the stationary bike this am, so that's a good start. Gotta stick to that protein!!

Christmas Eve...Already?!

Wow - it kinda crept up on me this year....although, I'm sure I'm ready. Ready for the gift-giving anyway. I've got to be strong and not give in to temptation! Luckily only a few days left of a house filled with goodies...then hopefully they'll all be gone...then I can get back to this diet thing.
I think, maybe, I'll try fasting. Water fasting, perhaps (water includes Diet Mtn. Dew, right ?!?!). I'll let you know after the 26th...that's when all the celebrating will be OVER!!!

Holiday Gains...

So, I'm thinking this whole "posting every day" thing just ain't gonna work out! I guess I'm busier than I thought? Well here's a synopsis of how things are going:

I've done great with my cardio and weight training - stayed right on track with that! Although...I've never really had a problem getting a workout in... I should be able to lose weight JUST with exercise, right?!? NOT.

Now on to the diet....I SUCK. That's all there is to it. Someone brought a peanut butter mousse cake with ganache topping to my family...How the hell am I NOT to try it? And then, after I try it...how am I NOT to eat WAY more than I'm supposed to??!! I need any advice I can get out there on how to learn some damned control when it comes to eating!

On a suckier note...I'm so bloated and nasty feeling right now cause Aunt Flo decided to drop in for a visit right before the holiday. So, when I weighed myself, I got 175. UGH!!! Hopefully, it's just water weight and it'll be gone before I know it. I'll weigh in again next Wednesday and post it. In the meantime - pray I can make it through all this holiday food with minimal gains :)

I needed thisporation :)

Last two days...

So I actually posted 2 days ago, then I forgot to save it...so I screwed up!
I've actually done pretty well with the diet and exercise:

12/15 - 1050 cals, burned 325 with cardo (not quite on track - but not too shabby either!)
12/16 - 600 cals up until dinner when I totally BP'ed on some Japanese and sugar cookies. I figured I got up at least 2/3 of it though, so I'm gonna count 500 cals from it...so 1100 cals and burned 300 with cardio

I've been up since 3am this morning, did some Christmas shopping online. It's cold and snowy/icy here, so I'll be staying in most of the day. That means I'm gonna have a REALLY hard time sticking with my diet. I do SO much better when I'm busy...I guess I'll have to up the cardio today.

Here I go!

So, today is planning day. I've already ruined this day by BPing, so that's why I decided to plan for tomorrow. What's that old saying "Fail to plan and Plan to fail"? Well not this time! I'm tired of being FAT!

CW: 175.2lbs (ewww!!!)
HW: 237lbs (holy shit!)
GW#1: 160lbs
GW#2: 145lbs
GW#3: 130lbs

I've tried pills...too many side effects.
I've tried Weight Watchers and Nutrisystem...too expensive.
I've binged and purged...just makes you feel like sh*t afterwards.
What's left? I think restricting calories along with exercise must be the answer. But how much do I restrict? And how much exercise do I need to do?


Currently: weights 2x/week
           cardio (usually stationary bike) 4x/week
           diet - what diet?!?
"The Plan": weights 2x/week (cause I think that's probably good)
            cardio - enough to burn at least 1/2 of what I eat
            diet - I'll start with 1000cals/day

So...that means I'll have to burn 500cals/day...I think I can do that. I'll keep it posted a list of my foods and exercise on a daily basis and I'll update my weight once a week.


Please feel free to leave any comments/suggestions. I need all the help I can get!!